more like “toddler” but he will always be my baby boy! My dear friend Bethany captured some gorgeous images of my little guy. Click on her name to check them out and her other amazing photography. I can’t wait to hang these in my home! Bethany captured his personality SPOT ON. Amazing!

If you are wondering why I had her take his photos, well that’s an easy answer. Her photography style is awesome! Not only does she have an amazing eye, but I am in LOVE with her post-processing! I can’t put a name on it but I just know that I love it. Anyway, a while back, we decided that I would take pictures of the new baby at the hospital in exchange for some awesome photos of my little ones. If the timing is right, I will even get to photograph the baby as soon as its born. My heart is throbbing with excitement and anticipation for these awesome parents because they DO NOT know the sex of the baby. I will be one of the first to know this surprise and capture that on camera! I can. not. wait.

Today really got me thinking about my photography and my love for capturing everything on camera. For the past 2 years I have had the camera almost permanently attached to my body. I started out with a point and shoot camera which I learned how to use “manually”. I then upgraded to a DSLR camera and never turned back. I have snapped literally thousands upon thousands of images of my children. Their lives have been documented by my camera since the minute they were born. Sometimes I tell myself that I will stop and take a little break so I can print some pictures of my kids to hang on the walls. Somehow this never happens though because instead of doing that, I am taking more pictures and editing the new ones instead. Someday…

To me Photography has been translated perfectly by this qoute; “Photography is a way of feeling, of touching, of loving. What you have caught on film is captured forever… it remembers little things, long after you have forgotten everything.” ~Aaron Siskind… This could not be anymore true. After experiencing the loss of a pregnancy back in February my outlook on life has been completely changed but incredibly, it has been in a very positive and beautiful way. It was the most difficult thing I ever experienced but I was somehow able to take the emotional pain and turn it into strength and a new outlook on life. Photography has given me the opportunity to capture those amazing moments and remember the little things in life. This to me is incredible. When I was feeling too sad to leave the house I picked up my camera. Snapping shots of my children and capturing the “now” and that split moment in time, I was able to forget about what just had happened. Photography for me has been an incredible source of healing and therapy and for that, I am so thankful beyond words can describe…

My goal for the future is not to turn Photography into a huge business or make tons of money. I shoot for the pure love of capturing those amazing moments. I hope the families I have taken photos for will look at them and go back to that split second in time. I hope that I am able to capture emotion, the “true” person, and create memories that will be forever cherished. If at the end of the day, I happen to make a couple extra dollars from what I do, that is just the icing. Nothing can describe the feelings I feel when someone tells me how much my photography has touched them in some way. Photography is what I live for…

My good friend came over with Baby “M” today. This friend of mine absolutely amazes me. I would have never guessed she just gave birth 7 days ago. Not only did she look fabulous (better then me and I gave birth a year ago), she is also one of those women that has everything together. I was a complete mess for weeks after giving birth with both of mine so this just mystifies me! Her husband had already gone back to work as a Fire Fighter where he works long hours. Anyway… Here’s is a little sneaky peak of this ray of sunshine…

There is nothing I enjoy more then watching my little gal enjoy herself. She loves to help her daddy with any project. Give her a job, and she will perform, whether its washing the car, sweeping the floor, dusting furniture… Its so fun watching her have so much enjoyment from such little things. I know one day that will change so I am enjoying it while it lasts.

This weekend I attended the Kamee June workshop. All I have to say about that woman is–AMAZING. I have been seriously enlightened. My outlook on shooting photography has been widened and I have been given the courage to move forward with pursuing this as a career. Still probably going to take it slow, and just keep on learning in the meantime, but— I know for sure this is what I want to be doing.

Little Miss Madison made her debut into the world this morning!! I am good friends with her mom and dad and was honored to be able to meet her and take some of her first pictures soon after she was born. It was the most amazing sight to watch this sweet couple soak in every bit of newness over the birth of their third child. I cannot wait to get to know this new little gal and take more pictures!!!

Party planning, bubbles in the park, dancing with my favorite babies in the kitchen while dinner cooks in the microwave… Summary of my weekend.

Its been three weeks since we got the bad news. There are still some days where I can’t get the icky feelings out of my mind although my two little miracles are quick to remind me that life is SUCH a joy. I am learning to enjoy the smaller things in life, sneak in some more cuddles and kisses, and not have such high expectations. I am learning to love those hand prints on the fridge, the little pile of crumbs under the highchair, the crooked towel and the unraveled roll of toilet paper in the bathroom. I am blessed that I have two little miracles to create these minor annoyances.

I never imagined I could love two little people SO MUCH. I didn’t think it were possible, but everyday my love continues to grow. Some days I worry that my heart will burst, it is so full of love. I cannot imagine my life without my little ones. I can’t stop kissing my babies and telling them just how much I love them. I hope that they realize that I love them more than life itself and just how amazed I am that they are mine. If I could, I would have a million of them although I will be happy with just one more. Hopefully the man upstairs believes we are worthy of one more miracle.

Oh and tomorrow we find out if everything is ok with our sweet little James… Hoping and praying with all of my might that its nothing and the office is just changing their policy of going over test results over the phone.

Little Lauren and her many faces…

This girl never ceases to amaze me with her silliness!